Wednesday, May 6, 2009

The Gift of Goodbye

There comes a time in a relationship where you just have to let it go, walk away and move on because it’s just not what it used to be. This is not necessarily cause by cheating, arguing, lying. Just a feeling of “its over” the love is still there, but not as strong as it used to be. The idea that you love that person but you are no longer in love with that person. How and when do you make that distinction? Mighty Mouth and I have been in this yo-yo of a relationship for 3 years and have produced a beautiful child out of it. And for that my love for him will always be strong, but as time goes on and our lives changed and evolve around our child we have grown distant. We see things in a different light. Motherhood has changed me, however fatherhood has not changed him. We have become to separate entities joined together by a child and the love for that child. But the love between us has not “grown” but is now at a stand still. Just going through the motions. How do I embrace the gift of goodbye?
I have sat and watched many relationships crash and burn when the love between them used to be so hot. I have watched relationship turn from great love to pure unadulterated hate. Watched mothers and fathers despise each other to the point where there child has become the rope in between this vicious tug-of-war. I don’t want that to happen between him and I. I believe there still needs to be some type of peace between us, simply because we have a child, So I need to say Goodbye, but its hard to let go of something you have known for years to walk back into the unknown world of Dating. I mean I should know when its over… Just let go.It is what is needed to be done … Right???.